Should I die, this blog will serve as my son's source of virtual mama.

If I live, I won't have to repeat myself.

sigers writes fiction and nags her son in austin, texas. 

I want you to be able to quiet your fears.

The scariest movie I have ever seen was called Independence Day. I have a recurring nightmare where aliens come to earth and they don’t even bother with the Rhythm Nation jumpsuits like on V. They just blow our planet up like we swat wasp nests.

I can’t handle stuff about judgement day or apocalypses or what happens after zombie attacks or a nuclear winter.

It took a few weeks to calm down after a short story about the sun not coming up.

Because I worry about that stuff too vividly. And now that I have you? OH LAWD. I can stay up for days, looking up portable generators and learning to can peaches. Plus gather a collection of literary classics and Kurtis Blow records for your bomb shelter education.

But you know what quiets my worries? 

The thought that if something happened? What a tragedy it would be that I spent one, minute of my beautiful “before” worried about what comes after. I should have been drinking it all in and being grateful for every moment of beautiful starlit normalcy.

It works so well, that I can almost hear a door shut in my mind, and I can get a good night’s sleep.

You will have to find your own ways to shut off what keeps you awake at night, but I wanted you to know that it is possible. You have to find something, that to you, is an inarguable truth.

My favorite quote is “Courage is the power to let go of the familiar.” For me? That is absolutely true, and I keep it handy for when I need an extra dose of courage.

I’m still going to read up on trappin’ and skinnin’ squirrels.

You know, just in case.